The last several weeks have been totally frustrating.... Zane has been very hyper active and very nearly literally bouncing off the walls and I've been unable to manage or control him. He snuck away from me while I was cleaning out the garage one day and as I frantically searched the yard, cul-de-sac, and neighbors, I eventually found him down the road in the neighbor's front yard, throwing dirt. Thank goodness for the "eeee's" - without his humming I would never have known where to look and I could just follow the sounds!
After meeting with his Psychiatrist we decided to up his dose of Risperdal and she also added a med for ADHD. The first few days were tough. He hasn't been sleeping well - which means I haven't been either! He's been waking up at regular intervals through the night and I've been so exhausted I haven't had much patience - or at least the patience I need with his tantrums, outbursts, and such. He's getting so big it is getting harder to handle him. I worry for when he is older. I hope he will outgrow some of this stuff.
Last week we had some wonderful progress!!! After months of trying to potty train, Zane has had terrible anxiety and would NOT let go and potty in the toilet, but last week he pottied twice at school! Such progress!! He has been pretty moody and uncooperative at home, but has also been talking much more - volunteering the words he needs to ask for things. He even told me I LOVE YOU without any prompt - totally out of the blue. (yeah, I cried).
Today was a good day.... Zane went potty twice at school. (How do I get him to do this for me at home???). He was happy, quiet. The new meds are helping him be calmer. After school I took him to the health food store to pick up some raw milk. (I have noticed he does not sleep well at night without having had a glass of milk during the day. If he misses the milk, it is a guaranteed terrible night's sleep). At the store, Zane loves to run around and play and I can never get him to stay by my side while we shop. Thank goodness it is a small store and I can keep track of him even if he's running around. Today, Zane stayed with me the entire time. He held on to my purse strap and followed me as we shopped and stood quietly in line with me as we paid for our items and even carried one of the sacks out to the car for me. I had to pick my jaw up off the floor and even the girls noticed his behavior. (They had given up on keeping him out from behind the cash register!). I kept wondering.... is this how normal kids act? How nice!
He has been so happy to play outside. The weather is beautiful and Zane loves for me to push him in a big circle on the red tree swing. I always get the biggest smiles and lots of giggles. After he kept stealing my toothbrush, I finally bought him his own - which goes with him everywhere. It reminds me of when he was just a baby and carried around a red stick that went to a little drum. He was so cute with that stick. It never left him and he would touch it to everything. He'd touch the stick to his shoes and giggle, or touch it to a toy or to me and laugh. So funny. The toothbrush reminds me of that, although now he uses it to wave in front of his eyes and to hit his stomach. It's a weird quirk that I hope will go away, but compared to many others like him I'll gladly take the toothbrush. It seems to have a comforting effect for him as well. He is much more relaxed when he has a hold of it.
Such a special little guy - I feel so lucky to be his mom.... Tonight I put him to bed and he climbed in before I could get his pj's on. He pulled the covers up and snuggled down. I tried to convince him we should say prayers, or even read a story, but he pushed me away wanting to go right to sleep. So I kissed him goodnight, told him to say his own prayers and he might have fallen asleep before I even left the room.... so peaceful. He must have had a pretty good day to be so tired!
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